Because My Life's a Puzzle,With the Pieces Torn Away. O.o

As she stand ashore of the noisy sea,
The wind blows, The air fragnanted,
The waves are playing,
The day is Sunny. 
people chattering,She dances along.
The smile painted on her face 
And the bliss smoked upon her heart.
The song written on her mind,
But. There's something missing. 
Something which breaks the smile,As she stand ashore of the noisy sea,
The wind blows, The air fragnanted,
The waves are playing,
The day is Sunny. 
people chattering,She dances along.
The smile painted on her face 
And the bliss smoked upon her heart.
The song written on her mind,
But. There's something missing. 
Something which breaks the smile,
Brushes away the bliss, 
And does not let the rythym of the song cherish her sunny days. 
Something that does not let her find peace in the sun, 
But in solitude,Darkness,Darknights. 
something that makes her feel like she's in a quiet dungeon,
Even when her earphones are bursting. 

She observes the Evanthe, 
The white shows calm and peace on the outside,
But the Mustard within depicts the pain. 
She touches the thorns of a rose, 
And she's so torn apart,that she cannot gather the strength to feel the abysmall and mysteriously soothing touch of the petals.
the smell of the burning grass,
Doesn't let herself gather up to Wait along to observe the aromic garden. 

Because her mind's tied up in the memories of the days,
When the sun conquered her heart and the nights were when her soul rested. :) 

Blah.

I have no idea what to write about.
From the past few days. Actually Many days. I've been feeling like a  failure.

Yes. Like that.

EXACTLY like that.
I feel as if I'm gonna die alone. -.-
Yeah man. Non sense.
But that's how I feel. :|

Gosh. Hail Me and my lonliness.

Because new hopes set in.

When your heart halts,
And you know nothing's going to be the same.
And the back of your knees hurt,
And your heart feels the pain.

When you know the dark's too think to let the light in,
And the despair's unbearable.
When the clouds above,
Just never settle down.
The Tornado befront,
Is not yet to calm down.

When the pulse of your beat is just no more like it was,
And the way to Paradise is rocky as it never was.
You still feel there's light.
The hope which can come in.
Because no way's that tough,
No heart's that weak,
No Love's so strong,
No feelings beneath. ;)

Because new hopes DO set in,
And the skies do clear in.
Because no sun can take down your wrath,
And no skies can fly far away to let you run out the math. :D

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Well, I don't care if it doesn't relate.
I love to monitor sunsets and watch clouds. (:

It's better off without a title.

Well, My life's a twirl. 

I have friends bitching about me, 

People setting me up. [ -.- ] 

People who just don't get enough of my banging and want it again again. 

And those who just never think of me as anything. (: 

Yes. Mostly the one's mentioned at the last point. 

They just don't get it. Not that I expect anyone to get what I say. :P 

But, it's enough. Sometimes I'm just tired of all this shit and all the confrontations. All the girlie issues. The So called 'teenage phase'. >.< 

Or whatever. ~.~ 

But yeah, Sometimes people just think they can come to me. Blurt out whatever they want to. And just get away with it? :\ 

And All I'll do is listen and wont react. 

Like i'm the godly saint of the cathedral of inglorious morons. [Yeah. Right] 

Because they just don't get one fact in life.

' EVERY action has an equal and opposite reaction. ;) '

Thankyou,Newton. :D 

Because of you. My stupid moves are justified are in a fair way. 

All Hail Newton. 

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As is see you flap your wings,

going through the flow of young winds.

I see you smile in ur soul,

watch you go,go towards home. :) 

I see you show me free will,
make me realise the breeze up hill.
I want to live like butterfly,spread my wings and celebrate my joy..
Give me wings ti escape this cage,
Give me strenght to fight this stage.
Give me my wings and i will fly before you say 1.2.3.4.
I'm just a little girl who says 'I want some more'. (: 

Understanding life is out of my league. O.o

Just when you start to live, 

Start to breathe in,

Start to learn to smile, 

The storm comes in and tells you can't win. 

Just when your heart feels right,

Your laugh grows louder,

Your heart pumps faster,

The sea sinks in and teaches you not to ponder. 

When you realize your life has a pocket full of sunshine,

Your day's got a sun, 

And the clouds disperse higher,

The void tells you, there's nothing you've won. 

When scratched knees heal,

And melted tears soak,

Broken hearts come for you,

Time just hides ways with a cloak. 

Because your life's all about twists that shake you,

Turns that change you,

Moments that stay with you,

And things you don't understand, neither do you never learn to.

Yeah. I do think about Guys when I'm flying. :P

Note. I'm new to blogging. Plus I'm prone to writing stuff that rules the world of non-sensible matter and I do stuff others just hate. ;) 

So, Get the picture? 

First of all, I have no idea what i'm just going to write about. o.O 

So,Yeah. I've just reached USA And Since i've sat in the plane. I'm thinking about one thing and that thing only.

 Guys. 

I don't care about how silly and girlie I sound write now. But yeah. Because, My so called past. (Which doesn't actually exist) is all about me saying no to all the guys who've um,asked me out? -.-
People actually think I'm afraid of getting myself into something like a relationship. So I thought I better reveal it in my blog. That It's not fear which just keeps me from getting close to someone. 

It's actually the thought that there's actually no point of all this,is it? 

Sometimes I feel like i should get in a relationship with a guy i know. Sometimes I just puke at the thought of it. 

Sometimes I think there's nothing bad in having a boyfriend. Having someone close. O.o 

And sometimes I think I have enough friends. 

It's not that i'm not attracted to boys or anything. ~.~ 

It's just that I pull myself from doing anything like that, For NO.FUCKING.REASON. :| 

Because Sometimes I really do get myself thinking about how I wont mind a friend who is ready to get together at any time becoming my boyfriend. And the other times. I just don't want to think about it. -.- -.- -.-

Sometimes I think it's because of the amount of heart-broken girlfriends and betraying boyfriends I've come across. About how unfaithful and trust-breaking guys are. In many cases, The girls are too. 

It's maybe because of my tendency to take things seriously and thinking about it again and again and just never letting the thought go? 

About how I just can't trust anybody because of the things going around. The fact that inspite of convincing myself that I don't think all guys are alike, I DO think all of them are the same. Noone can be trusted. Atleast in my NeverNeverLand of Distrustful bastards and cheating morons. ;) 

And at other times. I feel like I HAVE to take risks Because what's life without some adventure. xP 

And yeah. Also the fact that I don't believe in love. Yeah. I said the word. 'LOVE'.

Because on the face, Everybody's like 'I love you forever' and then you find them sleeping with someone else the next hour. -.- 

Maybe because I haven't felt it and don't believe it's anything more than the work of Phenilythymine in the brain cells which attracts us to the other sex through chemical reactions in our sanity stabilising Medular Sheath. O.o

I have no idea if guys find me attractive or not. Neither do I have an idea what's get them into asking me out. Even though only three have done it till now. I do wonder about it whenever I don't have materialistic stuff to think about. *Yawn* 

Because,whenever my mind is convinced about some guy i'm attracted to. Something or the other just changes the course of events. :\

Maybe I'm just not ready. Or just confused. Or just don't get guys I think are worth to be with? Or my hopes are too high. -.- 

Maybe I only fall for guys who are already taken. O.o 

Or Maybe I'm too young. :| 

Or whatever. I don't know what's the reason. -.- 

It's just disturbing and keeps coming back to my mind like some wind flowing across grass stealing away the scent and just not anyone get the idea that the fragnance ever existed. (: 

So yeah. I know it seems like I don't have other things to do. But If you ever put yourself in my situation. You may understand. :P  

I'm done. ;) :D

Ciao,Everyone. ;) 

Yeah man. I'm done. O.o